They ended up not officially calling me Sunday because they want to wait until they have the counselors and advisers called too. I did teach my first Young Women's lesson though. It was definitely different than teaching my primary kids. I had a harder time getting people to participate and comment but overall I think it went really well. I really do enjoy teaching.
Monday I met with Dolly- the current YW's president. I know she was only president for a few weeks but it was still nice to talk about things with her and vent on some things. She is a good lady and I am really impressed with how much she committed to the calling for only being there for such a short time.
Also on Monday I did something a little of my OCD character- I let the kids paint on the wall. After some major furniture rearranging- the toys are now in the front living room and Tyler's desk is in the back living room- a wall with some purple paint that had been spilled on it was exposed. The random paint spot that would not come off looked pretty weird so I decided to have the kids turn it into some artwork and frame it. And soon it just turned into a whole thing and now the wall has 3 works of art painted directly on it and then some framed pieces of art by the kids. I'm still not sure if I love it all but I plan to paint this room eventually so it's not permanent.
Tuesday I volunteered at the kid's school library as usual- I really do enjoy doing this. It's relaxing work to check in books and organize them and I get some good socialization with the other mom that does it. That afternoon I watched Caroline's two youngest while she went to the doctor. Corinne came over with little Lucie and kept me company while I babysat. We worked on a puzzle while little Lucie and Peter played and thankfully Elizabeth slept most of the time. When Caroline picked up her kids she stayed and chatted for awhile. And then that night I had Bunco (in which I majorly won which never happens). In the midst of it all I started my period. It was late and I thought maybe just maybe I was pregnant. I had a panic attack at one point at the thought of being pregnant and then got super depressed when my period started. Pretty much I am an emotional mess and just super confused about my life and confused about the revelation I received to have one more. At Bunco one of the women announced she was pregnant. She had thought she was done and felt like she was supposed to have one more. I felt so ridiculously jealous that everything had worked out for her and so ridiculously confused at my own revelation and at the end of that day just so drained. Too much social and too much emotional for one day.
Wednesday Penny had a half day and the others didn't. We took a stroll through her school's book fair and then went to McDonald's for an ice cream cone. The nice lady at McDonald's gave us the ice cream cone for free. It was a nice little date for us which was needed. Especially because afterwards she had to go the Doctor's where she got her flu shot and her finger pricked. She was super emotional about this and screamed and cried and then refused to walk for awhile. So dramatic.
After the Doctor's we went to Steven's Cross Country Meet which is not the most exciting thing ever. Basically you watch them run into the woods and then watch them come out. He got 29th place out of like 60 or more kids. I didn't time him but I am sure he's way faster than me. He seemed really tired when he was done, like he tried his best, and that makes me feel proud of him.
Wednesday night we had a Marriage Panel for mutual. It turned out really well. The couples gave some good advice for both the girls and me, ha ha! I was really impressed with how nicely Lucy and Penny sat for the whole thing. It makes me feel a little bit better about having them tag along for mutual for the rest of the year.
Thursday morning it was Steven's turn for a Doctor's appointment. He was also dramatic about getting a shot but at least he didn't try to hide like he's done before. He just sat there with tears streaming down his face. He gets himself so worked up about getting shots. He kept complaining that they hurt for 10 hours afterwards *sigh* For lunch I picked up Tyler from work and we got Subway and ate it at Milford park- the weather that day was amazing. It was so nice to have some kid free time and just chat outside on a beautiful day. This is a definite plus to having all the kids in school. That night I went to Dolly's baby shower. I was not really feeling up to the socializing but I am glad I went since there were only a few other people there.
Friday was my first day in forever with zero plans and somehow the day disappeared quickly. I organized and tidied up the house, ran some errands, agonized over what washing machine to buy and finally chose one, and I hung up some pictures. Then somehow it was time to pick up Penny and I hadn't even gotten a chance to workout or take a nap. It's crazy how different I thought these days without kids would go. I really imagined getting so much more done and having lots of "me time". Life is weird.
Also on Friday Ben and Lucy had the Color Run. I am a terrible mom and hate going to those things because they are so peopley but a nice friend took some pictures of Ben for me.
Anyways it's been a long and yet super fast week. I read some conference talks about patience and gratitude this week- they go with the YW's lessons for October- and honestly they had some things I needed to hear with how tough this week has felt. Things that stuck out-
-often we pray for patience but we want it right now
-sometimes Heavenly Father doesn't give us what we need because we aren't ready for it yet
-gratitude can heal and give us peace and understanding.
-not gratitude FOR things but rather an attitude of gratitude
-remembering to be thankful IN our circumstances
I'm still not sure what to think about not being pregnant. Not sure sometimes if I am meant to be or maybe if it all was a test of faith. But I am going to try harder to be patient with this life and try to be grateful for all the things I do have.
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