Sunday the weather went cold again but despite the chill, I could see the beginning a tulip blooming in our yard- it gave me hope for warmer days. At church we had a good discussion about the 10 Plagues in Sunday School. I really enjoy church when it doesn't feel like a lecture but instead it feels like I get to hear insights from a variety of people.
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After church I had a Relief Society Presidency Meeting. It was long. We spent a lot of time talking about activities and lessons but somtimes I think we miss out because we don't usually have time to talk about the individual needs of sisters in our ward. Sometimes I get the impression that the presidency doesn't see that as their job but I always thought that was something the RS presidency was heavily involved in.
After our meeting, Ben had a soccer game. It was at a soccer field nearby this time. Ruby, Tyler and I went and it was so cold and miserable- it even snowed a bit. Ruby wouldn't put on her jacket as we were loading the car, so she was just holding it, and it ended up not making it into the car with us. So Ruby and I huddled under my jacket for the game Near the end of the game, I couldn't take the cold anymore so Ruby and I went into the car to warm up. Ben's team ended up losing 3 to 2- it was a close game.
Ben had a dentist appointment Monday afternoon. It was his last one at our pediatric dentist. It was a smooth appointment- no cavities! I like that office and wish we could all go there forever- the dentists are all really nice and patient.
That evening, Tyler built a fire to burn some wood in the yard. Ruby and him enjoyed some bonding time clinking drinks on the deck and then throwing things into the fire.
I felt a bit run down Tuesday. Ruby had woken up at 4am Sunday morning wanting to read books with her flashlight and cuddle. I felt like I hadn't yet recovered from that and it was really hitting me Tuesday. Ruby and I went to storytime at the library but I decided not to be social and it seems if I don't engage, neither do other people so I wallowed in my loneliness. Then when we came home I laid on the couch and ended up falling asleep for a bit while Ruby played with her kinetic sand at the table. I never nap long and when I opened my eyes moments later- Ruby told me to close my eyes again and go back to sleep. You might think she was up to something naughty but she really wasn't.
The rest of Tuesday was pretty chill. I changed sheets, did some dusting, took a load to Salvation Army and made a new recipe for dinner (sausages and noodles). Later that afternoon, I picked Lucy and her friend Mila up from a birthday party in Milford. 3 of the party goers went to volleyball practice together after the party. I wish they had told me about the volleyball league so I could have gotten Lucy on the team too. She would have loved that. I feel like my inability to branch out and make friends with these moms means that Lucy gets left out of things. I hate that.
That night I was planning to go to Grace's but Tyler had a neighborhood meeting and Lucy's friend Mila was still at our house. I don't know her family well enough to leave their daughter at my house with no parents so I ended up being an hour late to Grace's. I know these are just laid back hang outs and it's ok to be late but I had really been looking for it and I hate being late to things. It left me feeling frustrated but I am glad I was still able to get out and have a nice night anyways.
Wednesday I stayed busy doing home school with the girls and I did lots of baking/cooking. Last week I had the revelation that Lucy was packing really terrible lunches for school so I helped make some things for her to pack on Thursday- Salsibury Steak and homemade mashed potatoes. I think that's a slight step up from the loaf of french bread she brought last week. I also made pumpkin muffins for both the girls to snack on and take to school. But that wasn't all I made. I needed snacks for Craft Club the next day so I made salsa and snickerdoodles. It was a lot of cooking and dishes.
Wednesday night I dropped Penny off at soccer. Ruby has not been napping during quiet time lately, so she fell asleep on the way to soccer. I ended up just letting her sleep for a bit before I woke her up to go play at Central Park in Milford. It was really beautiful weather for a park day and Ruby had a good time. She made a friend at the end ("wanna slide together") and the friend's little brother told me how Ruby was just like his sister. Than the mom told me all about how girls and boys are so different- she must of assumed that Ruby was my only child.
Thursday was so so busy. We ended up going to the church preschool co-op group in the morning. Ruby was such a bully for the majority of the time. She did not want to share and she would scream anytime another toddler came near her and then she would quickly grab the toys away. She also had no interest in the circle time- they sang a greeting song I had never heard of, they did the calendar and counting and then another song. I apologized for Ruby a lot and asked if she was like this in nursery and they basically said yes. Maybe that's why we were never re invited when the day changed. It was rough but I did have some nice chats with a few of the moms- one was really interested in our hybrid homeschooling. There is just one mom from the ward that seems very un interested in conversing with me. Her children are so quiet and docile, so maybe I am being judged by my aggressive child.
After the preschool Ruby and I went for a walk with Kara. We walked from my house to the small park by the library. Unlike last week, we had a really good chat this time. We talked about her mom going back to school (I want to do that!), we talked about her mission and some of the difficulties she had being single afterwards. It was a very engaging conversation and restorative walk.
We got home from the walk just in time to go pick up the girls from school. Ruby took another car nap. When we got home,she woke up and we met Asher and Julie at the beach. This time Ruby was not that interested in the water and instead just wanted to play on the swings. The swings squeaked and made a tooting sound and they both thought it was so funny. Asher kept shouting that he had farted and then they would giggle uncontrollably. It was really cute.
That night I had the first Craft Club for our ward. It was a small turn out. There were 4 other people there and 2 of them lived there. Everyone had a little art/craft project to work on and we chatted and ate snacks. I learned about everyone's health issues, lol and also some interesting stories from these ladies past. One had decided not join a union for her job and chose not to participate in a strike so she just drove slowly through a crowd of picketing people so she could go to work that day. Near the end they all insisted that there were other people that wanted to come but couldn't make it and that we should try again next month. I don't know, I feel like I am forcing something that isn't needed but maybe for those who were there, it was a social that they needed.
Friday I tried to make social plans for Lucy and Penny since I was feeling bad about Lucy not being invited onto the volleyball team. But in trying to make plans I was reminded why I don't. Trying to figure out pick ups and drop offs and aligning schedules is so challenging. All the new people they want to hang out with seem so busy. And somehow Penny's friend and Lucy's friend are both only available on the same day and around the same time which means that day will be crazy for me.
That afternoon I took Lucy short shopping at Target. I ended up spending way more money than I normally do on 2 pairs of shorts for her. She is getting so picky with what clothing she will wear and she drags her feet about going shopping so I didn't feel it was worth the pain it would have been to shop around for something cheaper and she really needed new shorts.
No drawing for Saturday- we were out that night and I didn't get a chance to draw my day...
Saturday morning Ben and Penny had soccer games at the same time. Tyler went to Penny's with Ruby. I took Ben out to his game in Canton (about 35 minutes away). I think I got the better deal- a break from the toddler and some time with Ben. It was freezing cold again but it was a good game to watch. Ben's team played really hard and ended up winning 2 to 1. Ben is really showing a lot of improvement and he recognizes that he is doing better. Afterwards Ben and I got lunch at Wendy's and had a nice chat about things. I wish Steven would talk to me about his life the way Ben does. Talking with Ben makes me realize how little I know about Steven.
That evening we went over to Grace's home for a "Dark Pot Luck". Everyone brought a dish that was something a little different but potentially very good. Nahoko and Eric Townes were there as usual and Grace had invited Carli and Josh Jones. Tyler brought his Taco Salad (renamed Trailer Park Salad that night which most people gave a 6 out of 10) and I brought cookie crackers (they were actually quite tasty and got eaten up). Most of the food was pretty good. The Jones brought Cellar Soup (it really was just a normal soup), the Eakins made Tomato Soup Cake (tasted like a spice cake), and the Townes brought Asian Sweet Potatoes (yum!), tofu rice rolls (the rice was fine but the deep fried tofu was blech) and dried persimmons (the texture was really gross to me). There were a lot of laughs and good times but I tend to shrink inside myself in bigger groups. I just didn't have a big enough personality to be seen in that group of people and I felt like everyone is just much cooler and funnier than me. Mostly just got inside my head about the whole night but it was a cool idea, the dark pot luck.
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